Just came to India, Happy to see my family members and my old school friends.
But really miss Malaysia and my school and my friends.
My hometown now seems even smaller then usall. Even my bedroom seems smaller.
Too bad i could not bring my hostal room with me.
The worst thing was that once, i got down from the van, everyone never even ask about me or my studies, all they ask was "Did you Asath. How is he. Did came to malaysia or you when there".
Shit you know how frustating it was when every one.
I was not jealous. I was sad. Cause for the first time in 4 years i was near to my love and i did not get to meet him at all. It was really painfull.
A thousand daggers just went through my heart just like that.
Today is the 4 aniversary breakup year. It has been 4 years since i and my love went different path. Not that we break up. Break up in the senese of never get to meet him at all.
Till today i have not seen him. I have only heard his voice. 4 years of not seeing him is like standing in the middle of a buring sun.
Oh God ! Why dont you just take my life. It will be less painfull then not seeing him. Please GOD in the next life please make me to be together with my love. Please Please Please.
Scribbled by BearBear # Wednesday, December 20, 2006