waiting 4 you

Friday, December 29

Miss You

Today, i met my friend GH. After a long time he have patched with his galfriend. Very happy that i was able to help them patch back. But Sad at the same time.

On the spot when they patch back, they huged and kissed each other. I felt wired and kind of tried to move a side. Knowing it they stopped kissing and started chatting about how stupid they were.

I really felt sad this time. I excused and came out ready. Bid goodbye and went to do FYP. But on the way i remembered about you.

How i wish you were beside me, so that i can hug you andpeck you.
How I wish you would lie your head on my shouders while sitting in the bus.
How i wish you sitting beside me and encourage me.
How i wish you would sitting beside me and talk with me.

Dear I miss you so mcuh that i forget even how you look. Hope you are missing me too dear. I feel jealous when i cant be as normal as other couples.

I love you, ILove you, I love you, I love you, I love you dear
- Rasul

Scribbled by BearBear # Friday, December 29, 2006 0 comments

Tuesday, December 26

VERY SAD< -- ANGRY WITH U -- >

After long time, my love called me. Should be happy right ?

But i was sad, cause he scolded, i not sad that he scolded me, but i am sad cause he is sad.
After the first call which was a scolding from my love, my love called me again crying telling me the whole incident.

It was very stupid and dumb for my love to play such a prank. I myself did not expect him to do that. But the saddess thing was that he cried, he usually dont cry cause he feels that we must not show the sarrow to the rest and make then feel sad. So he usally dont cry outside, but cry insied. But this this i cried alot. Never heard him cry like this before in our 4 years love life.

I really feel sad for JJ and Mich, Sorry gals. For a person who treasure friendship most, this is really stupid playing such a prank. Even i was disgraced by his act. Why all of a sudden must he play such prank.? Really makes me wander ? He is not that type of boy who loves to play prank. ? I am very angry with you dear . Why ?

Dear, jj and Mich,

Please forgive my love. I really accpet that it was the dumbest thing in the world. For my sake can you please forgive him. Please. I beg you both, please forgive him and treat him as usauall, if not i scared that he might do something stupid, Rasul will do, i know about him. He will give his own life for friendship and i have seen him doing it before. Please JJ,Mich do forgive him.

Thanks

Scribbled by BearBear # Tuesday, December 26, 2006 0 comments

Wednesday, December 20

Inida

Just came to India, Happy to see my family members and my old school friends.
But really miss Malaysia and my school and my friends.

My hometown now seems even smaller then usall. Even my bedroom seems smaller.
Too bad i could not bring my hostal room with me.

The worst thing was that once, i got down from the van, everyone never even ask about me or my studies, all they ask was "Did you Asath. How is he. Did came to malaysia or you when there".

Shit you know how frustating it was when every one.
I was not jealous. I was sad. Cause for the first time in 4 years i was near to my love and i did not get to meet him at all. It was really painfull.

A thousand daggers just went through my heart just like that.

Today is the 4 aniversary breakup year. It has been 4 years since i and my love went different path. Not that we break up. Break up in the senese of never get to meet him at all.

Till today i have not seen him. I have only heard his voice. 4 years of not seeing him is like standing in the middle of a buring sun.

Oh God ! Why dont you just take my life. It will be less painfull then not seeing him. Please GOD in the next life please make me to be together with my love. Please Please Please.

Scribbled by BearBear # Wednesday, December 20, 2006 0 comments

Thursday, December 14

Thanks dear

Thanks dear for your offer. But i think i can manage it. The money in our bank is for our future.
For our honeymoon and for our future expensess. I will never take it from it dear.

Congrats on your grades. Really happy about. Seems you smarter than me and getting smarter ah.....Haha...

So when you leaving for india. Wish that you can come down to Singapore. I really want to see you. It has been four years since we met each other. Hows your friends doing ?
Did thay pass or how? Wish them all the best.

Past few days i keep on dreaming about us. On how we got married, how our .................... was . And how we were living happily with our kids and everything. Hope it comes true. Old Folks say that if you dream in the early morning around 2 to 4 am it will come. So Lets make their word true. OK ?

If you have not forgotten, our aniversary is closing. 20 DEC .. It will be our forth year aniversary from the day since i and you got together. For that i would like to decicate this poem to you and to our love. May god bless Love and the Lovers.

Although we have to be apart,
We'll always be together,
Close enough in mind and heart
To manage any weather.

Reality is often bleak,
But love remains inside
A glass house on a mountain peak,
The wintry world beside.

Love can build its own four walls
And heat its own small room.
Through icy winds and blinding squalls,
Love can be in bloom.
Though continents drift far downstream

And mountains disappear,
And life dissolve into a dream,
Our love will still be here,
You'll turn, and I'll be here.
- Rasul(Love Birds)

Scribbled by BearBear # Thursday, December 14, 2006 0 comments

Tuesday, December 12

Miss ya..

I am very happy today. Got my results & they were fantastic.
13 Dst with 3 As and 2Bs. Not bad for a tamil literate indian gal ah....

But i will sure miss you dear. Soon i will have to go back to india and we would'nt be able to
chat easily. I feel really sad, Y SHOULD THE COURSE FINISH SO FAST........
Should have fail some modules and stay back for another 3 months
then we could have talk all we want dear.

The blog desgin is beautiful. I love it. It is very sweet of you to select the theme. It suits both our situtaion. Heard that you having some troubles with money y dont you use our saving first. Later once you earn back you can put it back ma.............. Just use it dear. Whats the use of savings if it dont help us when we need it.....

Miss listening to your soft non-stop voice and your jokes dear. Hope i can listen to your voice before i leave to india.

Hope you are coping with your studies and doing well in it. All the best dear. You will sure succeed in all the things you do dear.
Love You ....

Scribbled by BearBear # Tuesday, December 12, 2006 0 comments

Monday, December 11

Sorry dear.......

It has been nearly a month since i heard her voice.
FYP has taken so much time from me, that i keep on missing the chance to call her.
I really hate schl. Both my schl time and her schl time does not meet.
Because of that i cant call her when i want or call her when she is free.

Alreay my bill is more than 200 dollars.
I wander how am i going to call her even if i find the time.
Dam, my both pockets are empty.
NO JOB + NO CASH + FYP = Miserable Life.

Sorry dear, i know you would be angry and sad. But i have no other choice.
I will sure call you this friday dear. I am looking forward for it. Once again i am very sorry dear.

Wish you were right beside me now and comforting me now.

mucks....

Scribbled by BearBear # Monday, December 11, 2006 1 comments

Friday, December 8

Contacting U ......

Once a upon a time people used piegons to send love letters,
then they used normal letters,
after that they used the internet and the email
but now we used blogs to send the letters...................

The means of sending them may change, but love will never die and lovers will live forever.

Scribbled by BearBear # Friday, December 08, 2006 0 comments